Ek Anokha Bandhan--12
gataank se aage.....................
Aditya ko vo din yaad aa gaya jab vo zarina ke saath ushi room mein ruka tha. kitne khuss the vo dono. Vo pyar aur takraar ushe baar-baar yaad aa raha tha. zarina ka bistar ko hathiyana anaayas hi ushke honto par mushkaan bikher gaya aur aur vo hanste hanste ro pada, “kaha ho tum zarina…kaha ho. ”
Aditya utha fauran aur ushne apne ghar chalne ka faisla kiya. Hotel se check out karke vo seedha delhi ke airport pahuncha aur gujrat ke liye ticket kharidi. Raat 10 baje ki flight thi. vo 12 baje pahunch gaya vaapis apne sahar. Bahut hi dukhi man se badh raha tha apne ghar ki taraf. Airport se ushne ek taxi le li thi. jab taxi ne ushe ushke ghar ke baahar chhoda to vo bhaavuk ho gaya, “kaise jaaun ish ghar mein, tumhaare bina, zarina…kaha ho tum.”
Aditya taxi wale ko bhaada dena bhi bhool gaya. taxi se utar kar ghar ki taraf chal diya.
“sir 200 Rs huve.”
“oh haan…main bhool gaya sorry.” Aditya ne 200 Rs nikaal kar taxi wale ko de diye.
“aditya ne darvaaja khol kar light jalaayi to hairaan rah gaya. darvaaje ke paas hi bahut saare khatt pade the. Ushne turanr ek khatt uthaaya…khatt zarina ka tha. aditya ki aankhe chamak uthi zarina ka khatt dekh kar. Ushne saare khatt dekhe utha ke. Har khatt ke peeche ek hi naam likha tha, zarina.
22.04.2003
Aditya ne saare khatt date wise set kiye aur baith gaya sofe par. Ghar mein har taraf dhool mitti bikhri padi thi. magar ushka dhyaan sirf zarina ki cheethiyon par tha. ushne sofe ko ache se jhaad kar khatt rakh diye aur pahla khatt padhna shuru kiya. Khatt 8 april 2002 ki date ka tha.
“Mere pyare aditya,
Tum nahi aa paaye delhi mujhe lene. Kya puch sakti hun ki kyon nahi aa paaye. Chalo chodo koyi ladaayi nahi karna chaahti tumse. ek ladaayi ke baad hi ye haal hai dusri ladaayi huyi to pata nahi kya hoga. Koyi baat nahi mere aditya. Main khud aa gayi hun gujrat. Par ye kya aditya tumhara kuch ata-pata hi nahi hai. kaha ho tum aditya. Kya mujhse koyi bhool ho gayi hai jo ki mujhe akela tadapne ko chhod gaye ho.
Tumhe nahi pata kin mushkilon ka saamna karke pahunchi hun main gujrat. Aur yahaan kuch samajh nahi aa raha ki kahaan jaaun. Tumhare shiva koyi bhi to nahi hai mera. Ab kya karun aditya kuch samajh nahi aa raha.
Pareshaan hun tumhare liye. Kuch to baat jaroor hogi varna tum mujhe lene jaroor aate. Main akeli aayi hun aur bahut mushkil se aayi hun. Tum miloge to tumhe bataaungi. Abhi tumhe dhund rahi hun har taraf. Par tumhaara kuch pata nahi chal raha. Tumhaare ghar ke aas paas kuch puchne ki himmat nahi huyi. Shuna hai ki maahol abhi bhi tanaav bhara hai. mujhe dar lag raha hai aditya.
magar sabse badi dikkat ye hai ki kaha jaaun ab. Tumhaare ghar taala laga hai. chaabi hoti mere paas to ghuss jaati khol kar chupchaap. Vo ghar mera hi to hai na aditya. Hamaara ghar hai..jaha hum ek mahina saath rahe the. Vahin to hamaare dilon mein pyar jaaga tha. ham dono ka pyara ghar hai vo, pyar ki yaadon mein duba huva ghar.
Hamaare ghar ke paas jo market hai vahi gujrati restaurant mein baith kar likh rahi hun ye sab. Samajh nahi aa raha ki kaha jaaun ab. Tum agar vaapis aao to mera khatt padh kar turant apne college aa jaana. Vahi canteen mein milungi main. Intezaar karungi tumhaara please jaldi aana…mujhe aur kitna tadpaaoge tum. khud to nahi aaye mujhe lene ab main aa gayi hun to pata nahi kaha ho. Tum milo ek baar khub ladungi tumse. Par ish baar ladaayi karke dur nahi jaaungi tumse. Bahut bhool huyi thi mujhse ush din. Bina soche samjhe mausi ke ghar aa gayi thi. mujhe hotel jaana chaahiye tha. ush ek galti ki vajah se aaj tak hum mil nahi paaye. Ab aur pata nahi kitna intezaar karna padega. Khatt milte hi aa jaana college der mat karna bahut bechain hun main tumse milne ke liye. Itni bechain ki tum andaaja bhi nahi laga sakte. Jaldi aana please………..
Tumhaare intezaar mein
Tumhaari zarina.”
Zarina ke likhe har bol se aditya ke tan-badan mein halchal ho rahi thi. aankhe chalak uthti thi ushki har ek bol ko padh kar. Ush khatt se ek baar phir ye baat clear ho rahi thi ushe ki zarina jitna pyar koyi nahi kar sakta ushe.
“oh…zarina, kitna anmol pyar hai tumhaara mere liye. Tumhaara gunahgaar ban gaya hun. Jish vakt tumhe meri sabse jyada jaroorat thi main yaha nahi tha. main kitna bekaar feel kar raha hun kah nahi sakta. Kaash main hota yaha ush din to apni palke beecha kar swaagat karta tumhaara. bahut bebas mahsus kar raha hun main ye sab padh kar. Dekhta hun agle khatt mein kya hai.” aditya ne apne aansuvo ko ponchte huve kaha.
Aditya ne agla khatt uthaaya. Khatt 9 april 2002 ko likha gaya tha.
“Zarina ne khud yaha aakar ye khatt daale hain. Post office ki koyi stamp ya ticket nahi hai. dekhta hun ishme kya likha hai zarina ne.” aditya ne kaha aur padhna shuru kiya.
“Mere pyare aditya,
Aakhir baat kya hai aditya. kuch samajh mein nahi aa raha. Tum theek to ho na. kahi se bhi koyi khabar nahi mil rahi tumhaari. Saara din main baithi rahi college ki canteen mein tumhaare intezaar mein. Aakhir kyon tadpa rahe ho mujhe itna tum. tumhaare kuch dosto se bhi baat ki maine. Par kishi ko kuch nahi pata tumhaare baare mein.
Tum kitne nirdayi nikle aditya. Agar kahi jaana hi tha tumhe to kam se kam koyi message to chod jaate mere liye. Maine likha tha na tumhe ki agar tum nahi aaye mujhe lene to main khud aa jaaungi. Aa gayi hun main khud hi. Par ab aa kar sar chupaane ke liye jagah ko taras rahi hun. College mein hostel bhi nahi mil raha. Mere paas koyi bhi saboot nahi hai ki main ish college ki student hun. Sab kuch to jal chuka hai dango mein. Ab kaise samjhaaun in logo ko. ek din ke liye bhi koyi kamra dene ko taiyaar nahi hai. ab kaha jaaun aditya kuch samajh nahi aa raha. Mujhe bahut dar lag raha hai. Kal bhi college mein hi milungi tumhe yahi canteen mein. Dekhti hun kuch aaj ki kaha rukun. Ajeeb musibat mein daal diya hai tumne mujhe. Man to kar raha hai ki taala taud kar ghuss jaaun main ghar mein. Mera bhi haq hai ush par. Par vaha maahol theek nahi hai aur logo ne dekh liya to musibat ho jaayegi. Vaise bhi tumhaare bina mujhe vaha dar hi lagega.
Vaise kitni ajeeb baat ho rahi hai. kabhi main tumhe dekhna bhi pasand nahi karti thi ish college mein aur aaj aankhe bas tumhe hi khoj rahi hain. Aur ishi baat ka faayda utha kar tum mujhe sata rahe ho. Majaak kar rahi hun. Majaak mein dard bhi hai thoda sa. Pareshaan jo hun. Mujhe pata hai jaroor koyi majboori hogi tumhaari aditya varna tum jaroor aate. Ye cheethi bhi daal dungi tumhaare ghar mein. Dar lagta hai vaha jaate huve. Apne jale huve ghar ko dekh kar ammi, abba aur fatima ki yaad aati hai bahut. Dar lagta hai bahut jab apne ghar ko dekhti hun. Par koyi chaara bhi to nahi. ye khatt khud hi daalna hoga tumhaare ghar mein. Jaha bhi ho jaldi aa jaao aur dekho ki main kish haal mein hun.
Tumhaari zarina.”
Aditya phoot pada ish baar. Rokna mushkil ho raha tha, “kyon mere bhagvaan kyon kiya aisa hamaare saath. Pyar karne walo ke saath aisa hargiz nahi hona chaahiye. Main kyon nahi tha yaha…..dekhta hun aage kya kiya zarina ne.”
Aditya ne teesra khatt uthaaya. “16 april 2002, pure ek hafte baad likhi zarina ne ye.” Aditya hairat mein pad gaya ki kya huva hoga zarina ke saath ish ek hafte ke dauran. Aditya ne padhna shuru kiya.
“Mere pyare aditya,
Mil gaya hai aasra mujhe chinta ki koyi baat nahi hai. chinta ki baat bas ye hai ki tumhaara abhi bhi kuch ata-pata nahi hai. roj ek baar jaroor jaati hun ghar tumhaare. Vahi manhoos taala tanga rahta hai. tumhaari factory bhi gayi thi main tumhe dhundne. Badi mushkil se pata kiya tha address ushka. Magar vaha acha vayvahaar nahi huva mere saath. Kuch log mujhe chedne lage vaha. Maine ek vyakti se pucha bhi tumhaare baare mein magar ushe bhi kuch nahi pata tha. jyada der nahi ruk paayi vaha. Bahut hi bekaar maahol hai aditya vaha. Kuch karna ish baare mein tum. jish tarah se log ghur rahe the mujhe, mujhe bahut hi dar lag raha tha. ek ummeed le kar gayi thi factory tumhaari aur bhaybeet ho kar lauti vaha se.
Main ab ek chote se school mein padha rahi hun. Ush din college se tumhaare ghar aayi shaam ko to ahmad chacha mil gaye mujhe. Tumne bhi dekha hoga unhe kayi baar hamaare ghar aate-jaate huve. Unhone bhi apna sab kuch kho diya dango mein. Unki do betiyon ki izzat luti gayi unhi ke saamne aur unke bete ka sar kaat diya gaya unhi ke saamne. Unhe bhi maar daalte vo log shukar hai police aa gayi thi vakt par.
Ahmad chacha ek school chala rahe hain jishme ki anaath bachcho ko shiksha di ja rahi hai. bahut bachche anaath kiye in dango ne aditya. Koyi 50 bachche hain school mein. Mujhe dekh kar ahmad chacha ne mujhe request ki, ki main unke saath jud jaaun kyonki unhe teacher ki jaroorat hai. mere liye ish se achi baat nahi ho sakti thi. school mein hi rahne ko kamra mil gaya. aur ek nek kaam karne ka moka diya allaah ne mujhe. Bahut acha laga mujhe ish school se jud kar. Magar ab ek hi chinta hai. tum pata nahi kaha ho, kish haal mein ho. Samajh mein nahi aa raha ki kish se pata karun. Jo bhi kar sakti thi sab kiya maine, magar kahi bhi kuch pata nahi chal raha tumhaare baare mein. Ab bahut hi jyada chinta ho rahi hai tumhaari. Agar ghar aao to seedhe school aa jaana. Main vahi milungi. School bilkul bus stand ke paas jo maszid hai ushke paas hai. kishi se bhi puch lena ki ahmad chacha ka school kaun sa hai…sab bata denge.
college chod diya hai maine aditya. Tumhaare bina vaha jaakar karungi bhi kya. Tum aaoge to phir se join kar lenge hum dono. Magar akele nahi jaaungi vaha. Ahmad chacha kahte rahte hain ki college jaao…magar main hargiz nahi jaaungi. Aditya ab inteha ho chuki hai….please aa jaao ab aur kitna tadpaaoge tum. mar hi na jaaun kahi main tumhaare intezaar mein. Please…………….
Tumhaari zarina.”
kramashah...............................